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Update 3033: Just off the phone with Jennifer Rench from New Bolton. Quick update, ABC6 and NBC10 were there today interviewing Dr. Richardson, that will be shown (at least) locally on the evening news I guess. Lots of flowers and baskets arrived today. There is also now a second poster on the fence.

Update 3032: Some great news today from South Dakota: Slaughter Bill Killed in S.D. This incident is a timely reminder of the importance of ending slaughter at the Federal level. Please join fellow horse advocates in DC on March 4 and 5 to help make this happen: An Invitation from Paula Bacon.

Update 3031: We have a name for Barbaro's yearling full brother: Barbaro to be interred at Churchill Downs, it concludes:

As the days count down to the second anniversary of Barbaro's Kentucky Derby triumph, Gretchen Jackson said she has taken solace in following the progress of Barbaro's two full siblings--a two-year-old colt named Nicanor and a yearling they have decided to call Lentenor.

"We went down and saw Nicanor just last week, and he's looking great ... doing fine," she said. "He's coming along just as the average two-year-old would ... except he's carrying a tremendous amount of baggage."

Update 3030: I am on air, on break and coming back after the break (update 3029)!

Update 3029: I am scheduled to be on At the Races with Steve Byk at 4:15 Eastern Time today. Its on Sirius channel 126 and live streming from http://www.thoroughbredracingradionetwork.com.

An update from Penny at timwoolleyracing.com:

With all of the media coverage this Tuesday morning I have spent the morning reminiscing about the brilliant life and tragic loss of Barbaro. The announcement came earlier this morning that his place of rest would be at Churchill. What a wonderful place. There have been a lot of great things that have come out of his unfortunate death. He has helped bring so much needed awareness to important issues. We are thankful for the Fan's of Barbaro and all of the people who have given money for the rescue of our friends and to the research for laminitis. The developement of aritificial surfaces, like the Tapeta track at Fair Hill, gives horsemen another tool to keep their horses sound and out of harms way. Every bit of help we can get to keep these animals safe we will gladly take. Hopefully the horse industry as a whole will continue to develope new ways to further enrich the lives of these wonderful beasts. Barbaro touched a lot of people in every walk of life if only for a brief moment in time. He is not easily forgotten!!!

Update 3028: Superfecta here, with your regular Tuesday update on a rather unusual Tuesday:

One year ago today, I was working feverishly to keep the Penn Vet servers up and running against the sudden onslaught of traffic when the news of Barbaro's death had been announced. Unsurprisingly, given the difficulties of communication in a school with two campuses, the news went out over the wires before most of the staff was notified, which led to some quite harried scenes.

Rather unwisely, we had no plan in place to deal with that eventuality, even though it had been quite clear for several days that things were looking rather grim (and, indeed, that his prognosis had been deemed 'poor' in July). I had been at New Bolton the Thursday before and happened to notice in passing that Gretchen Jackson looked a little more concerned than usual, although I didn't think too much of it at the time. Friday I heard that the outlook was not good but that options were still being evaluated. I went to a luncheon on Saturday and when it was discovered that I worked at Penn Vet, there were naturally a few questions about Barbaro (although the prevailing understanding seemed to be 'I thought he got better and went home' for some reason). I responded that while I wasn't in a position to say anything official nor was I close to the clinical end of things, as someone who had experience around horses, I didn't think he'd last the weekend -- I was actually a little surprised that they waited until Monday to put him down, since Sunday would have given a little more privacy (and time for everyone involved to prepare for the press (and internet traffic) the next day).

UPenn 'central' seemed like they were less than happy with us for asking for help with image hosting and the like when the day came -- indeed, they had taken little interest in the Barbaro situation since shortly after he arrived. Nonetheless, they did pitch in (for a fee -- each part of Penn is essentially its own business and is run accordingly) and the site stayed up, despite very shaky infrastructure (which is why the donation sites are all hosted elsewhere -- so that part of the Vet School could use a big donation as well).

Did things go on too long? Perhaps a bit, but it's certainly not the worst case I've seen. I knew a stallion who had been terribly burned in a fire (the other three horses involved were killed), but because of his value as a stud, he was kept alive (often in obvious pain, and very disfigured) for almost a year after the event, suffering through infections and foundering a few times before a vet finally insisted that enough was enough. Barbaro had more good days than bad and I always had the sense that everyone realized that even in the best case scenario, a normal, successful stud career was not terribly likely (given the logistics) and so decisions were not made with that as a goal. But was it worth trying? Sure.

Burying his ashes at Churchill Downs seems fitting -- it's already a public space and anything that recalls his final 1/16th of a mile in the Derby is a worthy endeavor.


Update 3027: I did a brief phone interview for WUKY 91.3 FM out of Lexington KY. It should air sometime this afternoon for those in the Lexington area. I am also supposed to be on Sirius radio later today (4:15 east coast I think).

Update on Barbaro's ashes: Barbaro's ashes will be buried at Churchill Downs, excerpt:

The ashes will be buried at the center of a brick plaza outside the track's Gate 1, which also is near the entrance to the Kentucky Derby Museum. The Jacksons have commissioned a statue of the horse to mark the gravesite.

Update 3026: I love this article: Remembering Barbaro: Kentucky Derby Winner Changed Thousands of Lives.

Update 3025: A year ago today, January 29, 2007, a heroic Barbaro lost his fight for life. We can all remember where we were when we received the tragic news. For me, I was driving back to Fair Hill to meet someone when I received a call.

What I was not so prepared for was the tremendous work that has continued in recognition of a horse who stood for everything we aspire. At 10:30 am today, Eastern Time, we are holding a vigil. Wherever you are, whatever you are doing, please at that time spare some thoughts for a great racehorse and an inspiration for us all to continue his legacy.

At 10:00 am eastern time there will be a press conference held at Churchill Downs hosted by the Jacksons. This conference appears to be to announce the burial site and memorial for Barbaro: A lasting peace for Barbaro, excerpt:

The Jacksons are going to commission the statue and loan it to Churchill Downs as part of the official Barbaro Memorial Site. The site will be free and accessible to the public 24 hours a day. The Jacksons considered several options for Barbaro's ashes before deciding on Churchill.

"Churchill was where he had his most memorable race," Gretchen Jackson said yesterday. "It will be accessible to all the people who loved him so much. It was hard to wrestle with, but it's just the right place. And Churchill has been great with all this."

Today will see some added Barbaro press coverage, and some of that focus is also on Barbaro's legacy. The following are two examples:

Barbaro's Legacy: A year after death, horse lives on as a vital Web symbol., excerpt:

The "Fans of Barbaro," as they call themselves, have helped save more than 1,900 horses from slaughter by donating more than $800,000, said Alex Brown, an exercise rider who administers the Web site, which is located at www.alexbrownracing.com. Each week, horse rescuers go on his site and ask for donations to help save horses.

Barbaro's spirit carries on one year after his death, excerpt:

"I think it has been absolutely remarkable that so many of the Fans of Barbaro participate in horse rescue," Gretchen Jackson said. "Isn't that absolutely remarkable; just a real grassroots movement that has accomplished something, made some changes. It's excellent; if we could just get the [anti-slaughter] bill through Congress it would be even more remarkable."

Please keep calling and writing.

Comments

Hiya, FsOB! One year - it's hard to believe. My love to each of you this AM. I can't be with you for the vigil this AM due to work. But may we all "be like Barbaro" and approach the day with courage. The nomination of Mayor Paula Bacon for a Profile in Courage Award went out via electronic submission last PM successfully and the portfolio with your heartfelt letters as well as innumerable articles and references will be shipped today. How fitting. Much love! "And it's all Barbaro, the undefeated Barbaro, in a sublime performance!" Peace, RMH

Posted by: Robyn Hoffmann at January 29, 2008 11:16 AM

Worry looks around,
sorry looks back,
Faith looks up.

Barbaro's Legacy

RIP Big Boss Horse

Posted by: Michelle-OH at January 29, 2008 11:18 AM

Barbaro...my forever horse...you have a piece of my heart.....my undefeated champion!

Posted by: D'Anne in the beautiful foothills of the NC Smokies! at January 29, 2008 11:20 AM

Such a day. Thank you Alex. GOD bless Barbaro. We love and miss him and we continue his legacy.

Posted by: jane at January 29, 2008 11:20 AM

You have meant the world to so many Barbaro. Horses, humans and your guiding Spirit working together for the betterment of all.

Know that today, of all the Horses we've lost, you are honored, loved and, most importantly,

Never Forgotten.

Posted by: Sophie's Lee at January 29, 2008 11:27 AM

I don't know what to say except, I miss you, Barbaro!

Posted by: Sallie R at January 29, 2008 11:31 AM

Barbaro, you will forever be in our hearts and so badly missed. YOU'LL ALWAYS LOVED NEVER FORGOTTEN. God bless, you gave us so much in such little time. Tears today.

Posted by: Stu at January 29, 2008 11:34 AM

I am reposting my story from a year ago in honor of Barbaro and for all of us who love him

For All Of Us who Love Barbaro
I dedicate this story.


Barbaro was having another bad day, he hadn’t slept well. Even with the pain medicine he still hurt. His legs hurt, all of them, his back hooves hurt. He hurt all over and he was tired. He loved all the people here at NBC, especially Dr Richardson, but he was tired of these four walls, he wanted to go outside and feel the warm sun again. He loved his mom more than anyone, she knew him better than anyone, and bless her heart, she always had the blue tote with the fresh Lael grass. Lately, he didn’t even much feel like eating, but he did to please her, He always tried to put on a show of feeling good for mom, even trying to nip her occasionally to make her smile. He loved to see mom smile.
But still, the truth was he hurt and he wanted Dr Richardson to make him well, once and for all.

When Dr Richardson came that morning, he had his “procedure” face on. Here we go again, Barbaro thought. Another surgery, I’ll wake up in the swimming pool. I sure hope Dr R has the cure for me this time.

When Barbaro started waking up, he felt something tickling his nose and when he tried to open his eyes there was a light so bright it almost blinded him. The light felt wonderful, it was so warm, and it was hard to describe, the light felt like love. It surrounded him and felt so good, like all the hugs his mom had ever given him. When his eyes adjusted to the light more things became aware to Barbaro.

He wasn’t in a pool ,he was in a field of clover and buttercups and the tickle on his nose was a butterfly!He also noticed he felt no pain, his crooked legs were straight again ,his hooves were well ! Dr R had done it, he remembered now the last thing DrR had said….Barbaro when you wake up you’ll be good as new!
The Light he felt, he now knew was GOD himself, the Creator of all life.

God himself welcomed him to Rainbow Bridge. He explained to Barbaro it is here that all animals wait for their human keepers
So they can cross the bridge to Heaven together.

Barbaro had never seen so many horses, dogs, cats, animals and birds of every kind, large and small. Everyone got along, no one was sick and all made him feel loved and at home.

A couple of the horse who greeted him were there by special permission from God, they had already crossed over the Bridge but wanted to welcome Barbaro. Barbaro knew of the legendary stores of Man O War, Seabiscuit and War Admiral, here they were to say hello. There were also a couple donkeys that came to greet him. One once carried pregnant Mary into Bethlehem, the other one had carried Jesus in to Jerusalem.

Barbaro was so happy to be here. He thought this has to be the greatest place in all the world . He spent the afternoon racing Secretariat to the fence and eating clover with Lost in the Fog. Yes, he was very busy his first day at the bridge, he even learned he could FLY!! He always knew he could run fast, now he’d become a horse angel and he could fly!! He could look down on Earth and see all the people who loved him. He could finally put names and faces together. All the FOB that had faithfully loved and prayed for him, sent him cards and letters , baskets of flowers, apples and carrots, pears and those green mints he loved.
He was happy but they all looked sad. He wanted to yell to them,
“Hay, it’s me, Barbaro,I’m well. Your prayers have been answered. Don’t be sad.”

Barbaro had had a long day. He thought it was time to go to sleep.But before he did he had one thing he had to do.

Hello Laurie H,
I know it’s been a long day, you look sad & tired. Why don’t we get your blanket.. Honey, tonight I’m going to cover you with my blanket, the sage cashmere one you gave me, it’s always been my favorite. Don’t be sad, Laurie, God made me well.
Tonight, We’ll pull the blanket high on your neck so you can feel my love for you. As you sleep the dream angel will come. Guess what, Laurie, it will be me! I’m your dream angel now. Sometimes when you’re just waking up, and you feel a tickle on your nose or a hair across your face,you’ll know I’ve been there to check on you. That tickle is my mane touching your face.
Shhh time to go to sleep. I’ll be here for you every night when you sleep.

XOXOxoxo Barbaro


That being taken care of Barbaro could finally lay down to sleep himself. He wanted to dream about the First Saturday in May,the day he and his pal Edgar had run the very best race. He could still remember Edgar’s hand on his mane, the smell of roses, his mom’s hug and he fell asleep hearing the song thousands sung that day…

Weep no more, my lady
Oh weep no more, today,
We will sing one song for
My Old Kentucky Home
For My Old Kentucky Home
Far Away………………….


I love you Barbaro
Harriette Brillianthawk in Lexington
Jan 29 2007


Posted by: Harriette Brillianthawk at January 29, 2008 11:35 AM

Barbaro-

Thanks for the inspiration...

RIP

Posted by: Christian at January 29, 2008 11:35 AM

Not much to say today other than I miss you Barbaro and you will always be in my heart.
I will always remember you and strive to keep your legacy alive and well!
Thanks to Alex for all that you have done and provided!
And to my fellow FOBs, you are my famblee!
jan

Posted by: jan at January 29, 2008 11:39 AM

Although I cannot be here for the vigil because of work committments, my thoughts and prayers are here with Barbaro's famblee. Red roses are in place to honor this magnificent horse. His legacy will prevail.

I am so grateful for the opportunity to learn so much from so many wonderful people. Thank you all.

I miss you every day Barbaro, but know that you are in a far better place now.

Hugs to all today from Major Zee's "mom"

Posted by: DonnaR in Canada at January 29, 2008 11:42 AM

Michelle,"Faith Looks Up"Yes it does,so does hope.We all have both to draw on.
At least the dread is gone this am,for we already know what happened a year ago....
I have faith that we all will stay the coarse,for the horses.And I hope we continue to make a difference.
Thank you Alex,it has been a tough year for you ,and I do appreciate all your work,in providing us this place to go.I enjoy all the racing insight you add,as well.
Our work is cut out for us in SD,and across the nation we will busy fighting HS.They picked the wrong day to mess with the likes of all of us.
Thanks to my state leader Barbie,and all the others who are leading the charge.!
I will be with you all at 10:30.
Hoping next year this time horse slaughter will be defeated.!

Posted by: Brenda Ryder at January 29, 2008 11:43 AM

Morning skritches to the Big Boss Horse of Forever. Haven't you just done amazing things for us all...?? ("...and it's all Barbaro...in a sublime performance...!!")

MORNING POST, SHELLEYA, DEBRA, WI

STRATEGY FOR TUESDAY JANUARY 29
Tuesday is very special for the FOB’s. One year ago this day at 10:30AM Barbaro lost his valiant struggle and left us to carry on his legacy. This is the day we celebrate the life of our wonderful hero who started many of us on this journey. It is only befitting that we use this day to do what he would have wanted. The South Dakota State Senate Committee hearing is scheduled for 10AM Central time. (11AM EST). Let’s flood those phones first thing in the morning before that hearing. Let’s make those calls for Barbaro!!! It is no coincidence that this hearing is on January 29 but is yet another message from Barbaro for our help. Many of you that have been missing for a while have rejoined us for this sad day. This also means that there are more of you out there to make these calls.
As most of you know by now, South Dakota State Senate has introduced a bill to finance a horse slaughter facility. The Bill was brought up on January 22 and is already scheduled for a hearing at 10AM on January 29. We must act quickly to keep this from happening. Please go to the thread on the DB under Anti Slaughter titled SOUTH DAKOTA CONTACT LISTS. You will find all the information necessary to contact the South Dakota State legislators. This is just the sort of thing that brings home how very important it is to get the Federal Legislation passed. Horse slaughter is not illegal in South Dakota!
This is also the perfect day to call on your own Senators and Representatives and let them know of this development. Remind them of the urgency of getting S311 and HR503 passed so that American horses can never again be slaughtered.
So, while you are lighting candles in remembrance of our beloved Barbaro, also light up that South Dakota switchboard! What better tribute can we pay than to move forward with determination to carry on Barbaro’s mission!!
Please join our efforts and help us to stop South Dakota from passing a bill that will finance a horse slaughtering facility.
Remember….WE ARE BARBARO’S VOICE…..let it be heard!!
It's been a long year.....thanks to everyone for all your help.
Shelley and Debra
Posted by: ShelleyA at January 29, 2008 1:52 AM

Cheers,
Friar Tuck

Posted by: Friar Tuck at January 29, 2008 11:43 AM

Well the day has finally come. Hold close together, frens, it's going to be a long, emotional day, filled with prayers, tears, speeches, articles, and a tremendous pride to be a part of his legacy!

Together in the name of a big beautiful bay horse

BARBARO


Posted by: Judy in Nazareth, PA at January 29, 2008 11:44 AM

Good morning FOB family. Thank-you Alex for all you have done to enable us to continue on in honor of Barbaro. While today will be a day of reflection through pools of tears I will lift my eyes to the heavens as I often do knowing that the souls of those horses we could not save are safe and free with Barbaro and the Creator. I will relish in the joy and happiness for the lives of those hundreds and hundreds of horses that we have saved, appreciate the friendships and connections that have been forged here in the common interest of raising funds to save horses lives and improving equine health. We will be treated to the wonderful announcement that the big boss horse ashes will be laid to rest at the sight of his greatest race. We can be proud of the charitable gifts that have been donated to NBC today for laminitis research...we each are a part of that as well. In Barbaro's honor let us make a few extra phone calls to our politicians and continue to press for passage of S311. And at 10:00 am today let us pray together in our hearts and minds that the SD politicians will vote down S170. At 10:30 this a.m. I will reach out from my heart with love and gratitude to all my FOB family, and to those who rescue, re-hab, and re-home horses that have been given a second chance at life. I will do all this with pride in being an FOB and all that has come to represent and I will be grateful for the peace and the beauty that the Barbaro effect has brought into my life.

May the beauty of Barbaro's spirit fill your heart each day. Love and peace my friends.

Bonnie B. in Florida

Posted by: bonnie buron at January 29, 2008 11:44 AM

Good morning FOB family. Thank-you Alex for all you have done to enable us to continue on in honor of Barbaro. While today will be a day of reflection through pools of tears I will lift my eyes to the heavens as I often do knowing that the souls of those horses we could not save are safe and free with Barbaro and the Creator. I will relish in the joy and happiness for the lives of those hundreds and hundreds of horses that we have saved, appreciate the friendships and connections that have been forged here in the common interest of raising funds to save horses lives and improving equine health. We will be treated to the wonderful announcement that the big boss horse ashes will be laid to rest at the sight of his greatest race. We can be proud of the charitable gifts that have been donated to NBC today for laminitis research...we each are a part of that as well. In Barbaro's honor let us make a few extra phone calls to our politicians and continue to press for passage of S311. And at 10:00 am today let us pray together in our hearts and minds that the SD politicians will vote down S170. At 10:30 this a.m. I will reach out from my heart with love and gratitude to all my FOB family, and to those who rescue, re-hab, and re-home horses that have been given a second chance at life. I will do all this with pride in being an FOB and all that has come to represent and I will be grateful for the peace and the beauty that the Barbaro effect has brought into my life.

May the beauty of Barbaro's spirit fill your heart each day. Love and peace my friends.

Bonnie B. in Florida

Posted by: bonnie buron at January 29, 2008 11:44 AM

Dear Barbaro,

Thinking of you today, I have 3 images in my mind that will never go away.

The first is your Kentucky Derby win, flying across the finish line, all four feet off the ground, Edgar with one fist in the air while the other was patting your neck showing love, admiration and probably a little awe at what you had just done. What a glorious moment!

The second is the picture of your arrival at Pimilco. You were a breath taking vision of a great champion. How could one horse be so strikingly beautiful? What a glorious moment!

The third is you outside New Bolton with Mocha and the kitty. What curiousity and gentleness you showed us all. What a glorious moment!

You have brought together some amazing people who "get it" to carry on your legacy. We will never stop because of your inspiration.

You are simply the best, dear Barbaro.


Posted by: Patty in Dallas at January 29, 2008 11:47 AM

Barbaro - beautiful spirit. Thank you for your presence in my life.

"For I am sure that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us…” Romans 8:38, 39

Hold us in your love Barbaro - guide us with your grace and your courage, that we may be comforted during this time of intense emotion and rememberance.

Love you forever horse


The Light of God surrounds us
The Love of God enfolds us
The Power of God Protects us
The Presence of God watches over us
Wherever we are, God IS.


Love, Light and Protection for All of Us

Posted by: Mary S at January 29, 2008 12:01 PM

Barbaro, who knew that your death would save almost 2000 other lives from slaughter. And, these are just the ones we know about. Before your death, I didn't know about horse slaughter. Those who live owe their lives to you and the rescuers who went into the auctions to bring them out. I have 3 of those who were saved because of you. Rose, saved on the day you died. I hug her neck every day. She lives on because of you. Thank you.
Maggie

Posted by: Maggie at January 29, 2008 12:04 PM

Hello FOB alumni

Remembering Barbaro today and everyday.

I can still see him strong and looking so fine.

May the good memories endure and continue to enhance the lives of those left behind.

Posted by: Gail S. at January 29, 2008 12:06 PM

Goodmorning Alex and FOB
A day to look back, remember and continue to honor the legacy of a true champion. Thank you Alex for allowing us to do that with you. Barbaro will live in my memory and in the lives of horses who have been saved in his name. RIP

Posted by: SusanO at January 29, 2008 12:06 PM

One year ago today I posted this EXACT message: on the Univ of PA website
University of Pennsylvania: School of Veterinary Medicine
Mr.; & Mrs. Jackson & Doctor Dean: There is a wonderful, beautiful STAR IN THE SKY, who carries the name BARBARO that is FOREVER, shining down on us and will NEVER, EVER go away. We treasure that star. Grandma Bea, Ladee & Remington Gobèe
Grandma Bea Gobee, Ladee & Remington, 60; Bushkill, PA usa posted on 2007-01-29 16:14:57

Posted by: Grandma Bea, Ladee Elizabeth, Remington Barbaro & Bashful Gobèe at January 29, 2008 12:06 PM

Dear Barbaro,

We love you you for the wonderful horse you were on and off the racetrack. You are a beauty and as brave as they come. We will remember your life and are determined, like Mrs. Jackson, not to dwell on your death but take what you've taught us and run with it.

Last year, this day was just the worst and I'll never forget how brokenhearted I felt when I found out you died and I felt so sad for the Jacksons, Peter, Michael, Eduardo, Alex, Dr. Anderson and of course, your cherished Dr. R; my thoughts are with all of them today.

So you are returning to Churchill Downs where so many people saw you run the race of your life and run with your heart; it's a fitting place for you to return, precious Barbaro.

You will remain in our hearts forever and day, Barbaro and we will always walk next to you.

Missing you,
Daphne and Pee

Posted by: Daphne at January 29, 2008 12:07 PM

Our Sweet BARBARO is running around up in heaven, happy as could be, with all his other horse friends. he has no pain in either of his legs and he is not in a sling. be happy for him, and may God heal all our broken hearts!
Hugs to all................
Grandma Bea, Ladee Elizabeth, Remington Barbaro & Bashful Gobèe

Posted by: Grandma Bea at January 29, 2008 12:08 PM

Lord God - give each one of us a heightened awareness of your presence - that we may feel your comforting arms around us today. Still our minds and hearts - that we may hear Barbaro whisper to us.

Thank you Barbaro. I will never forget what you did for love. For your love of the Spirit of The Horse, you gave the ultimate sacrifice, to raise awareness. For your love of each one of us, you called us to you - in a voice we did not understand, but very clearly heard - still hear..... Magnificent Steed! It is an honor to stand with you.

Being great does not always mean being human.

Love you forever horse

Posted by: Mary S at January 29, 2008 12:08 PM

Hello fellow FOBs and Hello Barbaro,

My thanks to everyone for all you've done to honor Barbaro's memory. Look at all that has been accomplished this past year. We know the fight is not over and thankfully everyone is determined to see it through. I think I can honestly say that each of us has been forever changed because of Barbaro.

I will just ditto what the rest of you have said so eloquently.

I'll be at work at 10:30 but will take a few moments to join in the vigil.

Janice
A forever FOB

Posted by: Janice from Florida at January 29, 2008 12:10 PM

Barbaro:

I love you. Thank you for changing my life and for setting the example of strength, courage and determination.

"Here comes Barbaro, the undefeated Barbaro !"

"And it's all Barbaro, in a sublime performance !"

Posted by: Paul at January 29, 2008 12:11 PM

Across the ocean in the UK people will be thinking of Barbaro today. His spirit lives on and energises all his fans. Keep up the good work to protect horses.
Bless you all.

Matt (UK)

Posted by: Matt Merry at January 29, 2008 12:13 PM

Good morning FOB's. Glad we could all be together in spirit on this very hard day.

Good morning beautiful Barbaro. You've brought so much to my life that could never be understood by any except for the awesome FOBs. I love you and miss you!!

MJ in SC

Posted by: Michelle J at January 29, 2008 12:17 PM

Barbaro, you will be in my heart forever. Your legacy will live forever. The FOBs will make sure of it.
One year ago I kept checking the computer any time I could to find news hoping and praying for a miracle. At 12:45 I checked again and my life changed. I don't know how I got through the next hour and a half without losing it in front of 24 students, but I did. After that the tears flowed.
As I head to work with 24 different students, I proudly wear my Band for Horses/Fans of Barbaro bracelet.
Run with the wind sweet Barbaro.
Debbie in Ohio

Posted by: Debbie at January 29, 2008 12:20 PM

I'm one of those across the ocean thinking of Barbaro today. Thank you for the good memories and hope for the future.

Posted by: Liz (UK) at January 29, 2008 12:20 PM


January 29, 2007

The Young Prince blinked as the clear bright light met his eyes. Only a moment before, he was in a dimly lit place, filled with the light of love, but clouded by a greying cover of sadness.

Only a moment before, he had been in great pain. As an injured athlete, he had known pain, but never the likes of which he had endured since just before this morning's dawn. It was growing...white hot and horrible! Around him were the familiar sights and sounds of the hospital, a place that he had known as "home" for so long. He felt no fear, only confusion. He was usually confident that the people would know what to do...but, oh...the pain!

In spite of the white-hot-horror, he also felt the comforting touch of the gentle people who loved and cared for him. Today he tasted tears in their kisses, and he wondered...but only for a moment, for the cloud thickened, and covered them all. Their forms faded, then everyone was gone.

Suddenly, there was only clear bright light. It was true light, with crystalline essence of every prismatic element. All colors at once, so pure, so vibrant that he blinked at the stark contrast to where he had been, and what he had seen, only a moment before.

He felt a quickening in his body. He was more alive than ever...and his feet didn't hurt anymore. So, he began to run. He outran even the brightness. He was free! His companion was the wind itself, or so it seemed, for as he ran, he knew he wasn't alone.

His feet flew over soft grass, hardly touching the turf. He had been a champion undefeated runner, with a heart that loved to win. This time, however, he wasn't running for the win. This time he ran for joy, with no end to it. There would be no finish line. The horizon went on forever, and he would reach it...

The Legacy Lives!

Loving and missing our courageous Champion.

KEEP CALLING, especially TODAY...

Your FOB Fren, O

Posted by: Otherlyn at January 29, 2008 12:26 PM

### I have sent out my special message to all those who requested it by email. If you requested and did not receive it, please email me again. I was taking names from two computers, so I may have overlooked one. Thank you so much for all the beautiful words so many have emailed me in response.

Posted by: Harriette Brillianthawk at January 29, 2008 12:26 PM

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Good morning everyone,

I just have a quick moment this morning. We have a Winter weather situation up here with freezing rain, school closings, etc. So, I need to allow some extra time getting in to work.

But I wanted to share a saying that has helped me through this past year. Many of you have seen it, I'm sure but may it comfort you today...and into tonight.

Don't cry because it's over...
Smile because it happened.

Barbaro's time with us on Earth has passed but he lives on...in every saved horse, in the funds building to end laminitis, in the considerations of safer ways to race horses and in every good thing and thought we have.

He is here. And we know it.

Take care today.

Love,
Laurie H. in MN xxoo

P.S. Harriette,

Thank you for posting the note to me from Barbaro. I now need to wait to put my mascara on but it is time that I will spend thinking of our Barbaro...and what a wonderful friend I have, in you. Love you lady. xxoo

Posted by: Laurie H. in MN at January 29, 2008 12:28 PM

Just ... love to you, Barbaro. Shine on.

Posted by: Andy at January 29, 2008 12:28 PM

Vigil reminder - 1030 EST

Memorial thread for Barbaro

http://forums.delphiforums.com/alexbrown/messages?msg=18365.1

Posted by: Mary S at January 29, 2008 12:29 PM

Barbaro,
I will be thinking about you as I am flying back to PA. Love you sweet boy.

Posted by: Melissa,CA at January 29, 2008 12:33 PM

I can hardly belive a year has passed since we lost him. It feels like it just happened. It's one of the saddest happenings of my life. Although because of him, many good things have occurred, I wish his story had another ending....

Pam

THE NAME, BARBARO

How can it be
A year since you left
Without you
We're still bereft

We cried in pain
Felt torn apart
Heaven truly rained
Flooding our heart

When first I heard...
I cried, "NO"
You can't leave us
You can't go

I miss you
Longing for might have been
For your life to continue
The greatest win

We don't always get
What we hope to be
There's a bigger plan
Beyond you and me

So we carry on
Though a piece of heart did go
Written on that piece
The name, BARBARO.....

Posted by: Pam Mross at January 29, 2008 12:38 PM

i am here sitting at work, remembering barbaro and all the special things that have been done in his name. i think that today i will watch his races and dwell on all the good, plus think of his little brothers, one of which wil be seeing his first breeze very soon. thank you to the jacksons and all who shared him with us. without great people around a horse, its hard to get to know the horse.

Posted by: lyndapellitteri@setexas at January 29, 2008 12:38 PM

Remembering the Champion of My Heart today. It's raining in Kentucky this morning, reflecting my emotions today. May we all live with the courage, spirit, will, and determination of our great Barbaro.

Love you so much and miss you so much.

Kim

Posted by: Kim at January 29, 2008 12:41 PM

### Laurie H, you know I love you..

Also for those who got my email, please see there is a big attachment to it..Some have not realized the attachment was there, thinking the email was the tribute..not so...

hgill@qx.net

Posted by: Harriette Brillianthawk at January 29, 2008 12:48 PM

Beauty, perfection, strength, courage, determination, inspiration, love...BARBARO

Posted by: JoAnn Drew at January 29, 2008 12:54 PM

Good morning Famblee.

Barbaro, you were a Champion and an underdog all at once. I miss you. But I will hold tight to all the good things that have been done in your name, and go on knowing more is to come. When I see a picture of you now, I smile, intead of cry.(Mostly.)

I am thankful for meeting all the great folks at TWR and ABR. I am proud to know each and every one of you. Thank you Alex, M/M Jackson, and all B's connections for sharing him with us. And thank you to Equine Heaven, you help out in so many ways.

Let's make it a good day frens. B would want us to be happy. Love to you all...Kathy

Posted by: Kathy in SC at January 29, 2008 12:55 PM

Barbaro, It's so hard to believe a year has gone by. While my heart is breaking today I know that you are happy, you are running free, and you will never know pain again. I love you with all of my heart and you will always be my hero and my champion. Thank you for coming into my life. You have left hoof prints on my heart. I Love You Precious. OXOXOXOXOX - Nonie

Posted by: Nonie at January 29, 2008 12:55 PM

Harriette:

I didn't receive your special email.

Barbaro:

If not for you.....Be proud of your FOB on this sad anniversary. They have accomplished much in your name.

Posted by: Donna in caNADA at January 29, 2008 1:00 PM

Barbaro, today I celebrate your live, and thank you for all you have given of youself. You gave your best and stood tall and proud, God Bless you sweet Barbaro. I know you are happy, and continue to send your message to all that love you. We will work hard in your honor to stop the slaughter of our American Horse.

Thank you for being in my life. May you rest in peace.

Posted by: Carol Nichols at January 29, 2008 1:00 PM

Hay, FOB's!

Today is the day we gather to remember, to grieve, to rejoice.

We remember the strength, determination and beauty of a horse who knew what he had to do and he simply did it - whether it was being ridden by Peter Brette at Fair Hill in the early morning peace, whether it was running his heart out at the Kentucky Derby or taking those steps at New Bolton in December 2006. He is beautiful to me in all those guises - for they are facets of a beautiful diamond that shimmers in the sunlight.

We grieve because we wanted him to win this fight. And maybe we grieve for something deep inside ourselves that is a sadness so profound it feels as though our hearts will never stop breaking or our tears will never stop flowing. Once you go inside yourself and face that profound grief, you can let it go to God and open up to the love that has always been there. Look at that Love and let it out for the world to see...the Light that is always inside you will shine. That is part of Barbaro's legacy - to see that joy that is inside you. We are meant to be loving, joyous beings...at least that is where I'm coming from after 20 months of intense self-analysis...

We rejoice at the famblee that has continued our commitment to working for the horses and for all life. We rejoice that we have accomplished more in 20 months than some people have accomplished in a lifetime. We rejoice that we are able to save so many horses and other animals at risk. We rejoice that we are open to the compassion and determination that lets us continue our work.

The tears I cry today are tears of love - not loss.I'll be at the ranch and plan to arrive just before 10:30 so I can be with the boys today. I just didn't want to be sitting at home - I need to be outdoors today and be around those horses who, along with Barbaro, have taken me on a journey to places I never thought I'd go and meeting people I never thought I'd meet (Dr. R comes to mind. 37 days, Jeff) and horses I never knew I could "talk" to.

Dearest Martita, I'll be with you later today.

I love all of you.

Healing, Love, Peace
ONS
Padme

Posted by: Padme (Lyn Gilbert) at January 29, 2008 1:00 PM

In loving memory of Barbaro and with profound gratitude to Gretchen and Roy Jackson, Dr. Dean Richardson, the staff at New Bolton Center, Edgar Prado, Michael Matz, Peter Brett and Alex Brown for sharing Barbaro with us. Loving Barbaro has been a life changing journey. It is an honor and a privilege to be a Fan of Barbaro.

Barbaro, till we meet again, I will continue to honor your legacy by working towards ending horse slaughter, rescuing horses and ending laminitis. Barbaro, thanks for the memories.

Tricia K.
Barbaro will lead the way . . .

Posted by: Tricia K. at January 29, 2008 1:00 PM

19334.1

I wanted to share this with everyone. I hope it reflects the beauty, courage and intense spirit that Barbaro had. It was a labor of love. I received a lovely note from Mrs. Jackson which I shall always treasure. They represent all that is good in life.

To see the photos of the scrapbook pages, you can double click on them in the Scrapbook link. If you would like to read some of the text, it may be better to "play the slideshow" but then move your cursor to the top of the screen, and you can see the individual photos. In this way you can simply keep them on the screen as long as you like. If you move the cursor back down to the middle of the screen, the slideshow will resume playing automatically.

I am so proud to be part of this wonderful group here at Alex Brown Racing. My thoughts are with all of you and the Jacksons today. Betty Eaton

You may have to copy and paste this in your browser. I don't know how to make it blue here!


http://web.mac.com/reesemj/Remembering_Barbaro/Welcome.html

Posted by: Betty Eaton at January 29, 2008 1:01 PM

### Donna, email me your correct email address so I can re-send it to you
hgill@qx.net

Posted by: Harriette Brillianthawk at January 29, 2008 1:02 PM

One year ago but it seems like it was yesterday.

Yearning for you Barbaro. But comforted that you are free of pain and at peace. You did let us know you were ready to pass over the Rainbow Bridge.

And comforted that only because of you, dear BB, have so many horses been helped. Thousands. And your Legacy will continue FOREVER to help all horses. For, EVERY HORSE IS BARBARO!

THE CHAMPION! Because you do know...oh yes...no doubt about it...Barbaro (!) you did win the Triple Crown! There was no way you could not!

Run, my friend. I see you enjoying all and always with a smile...so happy are you. Except when you have "business" to do and need to relay it back to us mortal humans. You know, the never ending "work" to help all the horses.

Thank you Barbaro, for watching over all of us.

We love you. We miss you.

Nuzzles.

Ronnie from Ma.

Posted by: Ronnie Greene at January 29, 2008 1:04 PM

Although, like many, I will be working at 10:30 today, my heart and prayers will be with Barbaro and all of you, as it is every day...as it will be every day to come.

Laurie

Posted by: Laurie (lremenyi1) at January 29, 2008 1:04 PM

Good Morning FOB's.Good morning sweet Barbaro in
Equine Heaven.
I am so honored to be a part of this incredible group of caring, and supportive people.
Barbaro came into my life and my heart on May 6th, 2006 and he will remain there forever.
My saddness on this day is lightened by the memories of several bright spots that would not have been there but for Barbaro. Barbaro's legacy will never be forgotton--for me --I will never forget April 29th at DelPark and the most amazing gathering of people I have ever been a part of.
The births of Baby B and Spirit at MHR will forever be a highlight for me. Finding MHR and all of the wonderful people there has meant so much to me--I hope to go there one day--in the meantime--I love and support this wonderful paradise for horses.
Hope this isn't too long.

Barbaro--a true hero who will never be forgotton.
With Love
Linda

Posted by: lindasnyc at January 29, 2008 1:04 PM

###

Alex,

Thank you for posting the article written by Mike Jensen! I enjoyed reading it... but could cry...

Daphne

Posted by: Daphne at January 29, 2008 1:05 PM

Yes, I do remember where I was when I read the tragic news one year ago today. It is a guarantee at 10:30 this morning that I will once again be in tears at work as I was that day. It is as painful today as it was a year ago :(

God Bless You, Barbaro, you have been such an inspiration in your living days as well as after your passing. In my heart, you will never be forgotten, will love you always!

Posted by: Ruth Ann - NJ at January 29, 2008 1:08 PM

Loving Barbaro and doing what I can in his memory to make the world a better place for our horses and all of God's creatures.

Posted by: Kate Kujat in Canyon Lake TX at January 29, 2008 1:10 PM

I send love and honor to 1 horse, who taught me how love could be eternal. To Barbaro.

Posted by: kathryn in ok at January 29, 2008 1:10 PM

Not a day went by this past year that I didn't think of Barbaro.

Time keeps on sweeping into the future..

He left an amazing legacy of goodness and compassion and dignity. I continue to do what I can to honor this magnificent horse and the great people who cared for him.

Always and forever, Baboo.

Posted by: Christine at January 29, 2008 1:14 PM

Checking in today. With a sad heart, yet optimistic about all Barbaro has brought to myself and others around him. An astonishing horse and soul. God gave him to us for a reason. God took him from us for a reason. Reasons we will continue to discover for years to come. God Bless the Jacksons, Michael Matz, Edgar Prado, Alex, all the FOB and everyone involved in Barbaro's history and life. What a remarkable piece of history this is and will continue to be. I am honored to have been able to be a part of this miracle and positive energy. I will continue to fight horseslaughter, continue to assist with horse rescue and continue to remember Barbaro for the rest of my life.

I am an original FOB and I will always remain one forever......the memories and pictures from Delaware Park, the friends, the emotions, the prayers, the continued efforts. It is all an incredible venture into what life is truly about. About inspiration, a hero, a lesson, helping, praying, BELIEVING, moving on and continuing in spirit what one horse brought to this Nation. A horse with qualities most humans dream of maintaining. A horse with a spirit and depth beyond our imagination. A horse with the will to trust and accept human interaction, and teach us all about the ability of animals to show us love and hope. One year ago today, my heart was empty with sadness and disbelief. Today, my heart is open with the belief that we will continue the fight, the courage and spirit that one horse has shown an entire Nation.....

God Bless......love and hugs this has been a most memorable experience in my life.

Posted by: Deb G. at January 29, 2008 1:19 PM

Still missing you Barbaro and my beautiful Brutus the boxer. I know you are both now pain free!!

Love you both!!

Posted by: Carla at January 29, 2008 1:21 PM

My heart is so heavy this morning. The tears still flow for this fallen champion. Still undefeated, as he has led the field for a year to abolish horse slaughter and to provide safe forever homes for his brothers and sisters at risk. I also know in my heart that without his death, this mighty movement would not have been born. But, oh, how I wish it could have been otherwise. I will always miss you. My undying admiration goes to the New Bolton Center and to all of his wonderful connections.

I may not be able to attend the vigil because of work, but will definitely be with you all in spirit. Thank all of you for your dedication and love for horses and each other.

Posted by: jacalynt at January 29, 2008 1:21 PM

Barbaro:

You were the epitomy of undaunted courage and exemplary grace. I miss you.

Until we meet again,
Mary Jane

Posted by: Mary Jane Riggs at January 29, 2008 1:26 PM

I posted this earlier on the DB - my tribute to Barbaro...

With my quilter's skills I piece together the images and descriptions of your life before racing...the blue Kentucky grass - the green trees - the bay, chestnut, brown and gray of your early companions - the calm reassurances passed on by all who came in contact.

I stitch together the images and descriptions of your previous races. My imagination captures the snorts of your breath and the cadence of your gallop as you put away all comers.

I wake from dreams of glory...not the most difficult race but the most important. Smiling faces, cheering crowds, soothing words murmured in Spanish by familiar voices. Red roses and greenery, lightning flashing from photograpohers' cameras. A surreptitious pat on the shoulder, a gentle brush of the face and then the walk back to the barn...and sweet feed and oats. The champion's reward.

I am honored to be a part of this community.

Marg
Proud Fan of Barbaro forever

Posted by: Marg in Maine at January 29, 2008 1:28 PM

Good Morning Barbaro and Family

Nothing can say any better than what your family has wrote. We all have an empty spot in our hearts for you, Barbaro...but also we know you are painfree and happy...running in green pastures with the sun basking on your back. Like Aunt Harriette says buttercups and fields of clovers...WHAT A SIGHT!

So, Barbaro, til God takes my last breath away, I am here, never giving up, and being a foot soldier for your legacy to save your brothers and sisters...in fact all animals...deserve love, care, and compassion.

May God be with each of my family...may we hold each other today and always as a family living in the House that Barbaro built.

Love, Joan

Posted by: joan roya at January 29, 2008 1:29 PM

GOOD MORNING SWEET BARBARO IN HEAVEN, I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER WHAT A GREAT HORSE YOU WERE, & WILL NEVER FORGET YOU. I HOPE YOU ARE PAIN FREE & WITH ALL THE OTHER LOVED LOST ANGELS IN EQUINE HEAVEN... MISS YOU SOOO MUCH, YOU ARE WHAT GOT ME INTERESTED IN HORSES, & RACING. MAY YOUR LEGACY LIVE ON, & MAY YOU WATCH OVER ALL OF US. I MISS YOU BARBARO... GOD'S PEACE BE WITH YOU.. SPECIAL PRAYERS FOR YOU TODAY BIG BOY...
DIANE/PA

Posted by: diane at January 29, 2008 1:33 PM

Dang it Barbaro it's been a whole year. I could sit at this computer and type away, but you and all the FOBs know what you mean to me and how you have changed the direction that part of my life has taken.
I just know that I still miss you like it was yesterday. You are still my personal "HERO" and my inspiration. You helped me through the toughest period in my life!

Stay strong FOBs and unite because one day we will find a cure for laminitis and stop the ugliness of horse slaughter all in the name of Barbaro.

I will always remember you and you will be forever in my heart.

God speed dear Barbaro

Kath fron SC

Posted by: Kath at January 29, 2008 1:35 PM

I don't know what to say... this day is going to be a tough one. I stand with you all in honoring and remembering our sweet colt, mio bello cavallo, our Barbaro, in all that he has brought to our lives in this past year.

To Barbaro... thank you for bringing Aspen to me. Without you as my guide & inspiration, he would not be here today. I love you, Barbaro and miss you more than words can say. Per sempre.

Thank you, Alex, for all that you do. Be gentle with yourself today.

'Don't let it be forgot
That once there was a spot,
For one, brief shining moment
That was known as Camelot'

Love to all,
Judy in CT & Aspen

Posted by: Judy in CT at January 29, 2008 1:37 PM

Thank you, Barbaro, for opening my eyes and my heart. I will be forever grateful...

I know it was you that brought Dixie home to me. I will never forget that. Not ever...

I miss you. Rest in peace honey.

Wishing all the FOB's ACN.

Thank you, Alex.

Corrine in CT

Posted by: Corrine at January 29, 2008 1:38 PM

Barbaro you live in my heart!

I miss you so much and every morning I turn my computer on and see your beautiful face as bakground I am reminded of how privilidged I am to having "known"you.

Thank you.

Ro & Brady

Posted by: Rosemarie at January 29, 2008 1:42 PM

Good Morning Famblee

Probably, like most of you I found TWR while Googling for Barbaro updates after the accident. I lurked a few weeks before I made my first post. What attracted me the most about the community was the compassion. I couldn't believe that I had stumbled upon a group who felt the same about animals. I have been an FOB from nearly the onset and have seen our community morph and evolve.
What has, what's now known as ABR done for me? It has changed my life on so many levels. I have found kindred spirits, adopted Cloud, associated with a horse rescue who has become my family and discovered that these beautiful animals can face a horror so unimaginable that I am dedicated to stopping slaughter.

As we come together to face an anniversary we never wanted I feel that we also understand that a greater force is at work. That Barbaro's destiny was much more than we ever anticipated when the announcer screamed..... "And here comes BARBARO!! The UnDefeated Barbaro!!!..................... But it is ALLLLL Barbaro!!! in a SUBLIIIIIIIIIME PERFORMANCE and he runs away from it ALL Its Barbaro by seven!!!!!

On that terrible morning one year ago Alex announced that there was going to be a press conference from New Bolton. I knew then that the news would not be good. That the words that we longed to hear, ACN, would not be heard again in that context. We are Barbaro's famblee, left behind to be the stewards of his legacy.

Way to go Famblee. He could not be prouder. I am sure of that.

Cathy Potter

Posted by: cathy potter/california at January 29, 2008 1:43 PM

Barbaro,
It was right around 7:30 a.m. (PST) as I walked past your photos on my wall - I stopped and looked into your eyes . . . and I knew you were gone. I hadn't got the news yet, but soon read Alex's message about the press conference, and my heart sank. Then the horrible news that . . . beautiful Barbaro was put down. I haven't cried since that day, but that day I cried like the night I lost my little Pomeranian dog, Abby, many years ago. I'm sure the neighbors could hear me screeming, NO, NO! - that day, one year ago today! So now tears are coming to my eyes again.
But Barbaro, your victories contine, and will go on and on forever. I borrow the quote written for Seabiscuit long ago: Barbaro. . . "whose hoofbeats will echo in the hallowed halls of time forever - till the last post bugle has sounded, and great horses gallop no more on the earth."

Thank you Barbaro for all you've done. And Zamara, one of the first horses saved in your name, thanks you.

Thank you again too Alex, for all your hard work in the name of Barbaro.

And thank you all FOBs for your continued efforts to save more horses. We "GET IT"!

May God bless you all!


Posted by: Faye C. at January 29, 2008 1:45 PM

I have been an FOB since August 2006. I am going to be in a meeting at the time of the vigil, but will think of Barbaro. May we all learn from his tremendous courage and remember him not just because of his injury, but because he was a great, courageous athlete and a history-making racehorse who loved to run. Thanks to Alex for his patience and all he has done to allow the FOB's to continue Barbaro's true mission in life.

Posted by: Jo Ann in TN at January 29, 2008 1:46 PM

Sweet Barbaro,

Gone from us now a whole year and yet it seems like it was just yesterday that you were taken from us.

Because of you, we know the definition of true strength and courage is...there are horses being saved from slaughter...there are monies donated to find a cure for the hideous affliction that cost you your life...because of you, we are better off having had you in our lives.

You are still so sadly missed.

Peg
Cary, IL

Posted by: Peg K at January 29, 2008 1:47 PM

Barbaro, my forever hero,

You have accomplished so much and have had such a profound effect on so many, in your all too brief time on this earth.

You remain in my heart always. How lucky I feel to have known you and loved you, if only from afar. You are an inspiration to all that know and love you.

Rest in peace, sweetest colt. xoxo

Posted by: Amy A in NJ - Forever FOB at January 29, 2008 1:52 PM

Harriette, thank you so much for the special e-mail today, you are the best.

Posted by: Carol Nichols at January 29, 2008 1:53 PM

I decided last night that there was no way I could go to work today as I needed to be here. When I saw the ttle of A Lasting Peace for Barbaro, I burst into tears. I know I will travel to churchill because I have to see him. We promised ourselves we would be there when he got out of New Bolton. This was not the way we wanted it to happen but it was his destiny. I would like to go there with other FOB's because we get it.

I love you Barbaro. You were and still remain for me the greatest.

Posted by: MJ at January 29, 2008 1:53 PM

Barbaro, so much emotion, so many heartfelt tributes, so many memories. I can say nothing new or more eloquent - I humbly echo the words of your Famblee. From my heart to yours, you know what I feel - you know. I will join with the FOBs at today's vigil and for every day's dedication to your legacy. I love you.
I BELIEVE.
((((((((((((((FOBs))))))))))))))))))
(((((((((((((BARBARO))))))))))))))))

Posted by: LINDA OF NW FLA at January 29, 2008 1:55 PM

A year ago today I woke up with dread and sickness in my heart, somehow knowing, but clinging to one last thread of hope that the miracle would happen again. Felix nestled next to me and showered me with kisses and purrs and headbutts. He was different that morning, looking at me with tenderness. He knew. He knew what was happening at New Bolton even as I lay there.

One year later my life has changed drastically, and for the better. Though the losses will always be with me, the legacy and lessons learned are what's important.

I am a better person today because of a horse I never met.

You are all so remarkable, so wonderful.

Be good to yourselves today, FOBs. Celebrate the life and legacy of our Old Soul Barbaro.

FOB forever.

Susan, Lizzie, Bagheera
Angel Felix

Posted by: Susan E. at January 29, 2008 1:56 PM

A year gone by but, it still feels like yesterday that you left us, Barbaro. I hope you are happy and free from all pain. Run, Barbaro, run!!
God be with you!

Posted by: Louise Manzione at January 29, 2008 1:57 PM

Barbaro sweetheart...thankyou for changing my life and bringing this wonderful family together to carry on your unfinished tasks.

You are our guiding light, our shinning star that will forever light our way and hearts.

Will love you forever! You are still you always!

Posted by: Jenny PR at January 29, 2008 1:59 PM

God bless Barbaro, please keep him in Your care, until we all get there.
I know we will all see you again one day, Big Guy, there's no doubt about it...I think of your strength and courage every day and think about the inspiration you are to me. Thank you, Barbaro, God bless....until we meet again...

Posted by: Sue W. at January 29, 2008 2:03 PM

In the short time you were on this Earth Barbaro,
you taught so many people that ones actions are so much bigger than themselves. Selflessness is one of Gods greatest gifts to us all and you gave yourself to heaven so that we could carrying on what you started.

I am so proud to be a FOB and the responsibility that goes along with it. I will never let you down and will continue to do all I can to push legislation against HS and help horses out of feedlots to give them a forever home. I will donate to help doctors find a cure for laminitus. I will, I will ,I will.

At 10:30 today I will be at the barn getting my Dixie ready for a great ride. I will run the images of the Derby in my head and smile to the heavens as I remmeber you finishing that race in such a grand way!

Hugs and kisses sweet Prince.

Posted by: Leigh in Austin TX at January 29, 2008 2:05 PM

Barbaro, sweet spirit horse...I love you today just as I did yesterday, just as I will tomorrow - you are the undisputed CHAMPION OF MY HEART!

I stand this day in respectful solidarity with Mr. & Mrs. Jackson; Drs. Richardson, Anderson and Sweeney; Michael, Peter, Edgar, Eduardo and Alex; Mr. and Mrs. Stephens...and with everyone else who experienced the blessing of laying hands upon that glorious specimen of a thoroughbred known to us as BARBARO, for the purposes of teaching and training and love, celebration, healing and compassionate farewell. I honor you all...

Forever in my heart, a piece of my heart went with him,

Nnacy

Posted by: Nancy in CT at January 29, 2008 2:09 PM

I am at work and stealing time to come here on this day. I don't know if I can be here at 10:30 but I will be here in spirit. I will always love you Barbaro. May we always work together for the good of the horse no matter which path we choose. Rescue, laminitis research, anti slaughter legislation.
I will always love you Barbaro. Run free.
-Joanne

Posted by: Joanne Frank at January 29, 2008 2:11 PM

Wonderful article about Barbaro and his statue along with a link to his maiden race:
http://www.courier-journal.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20080128/SPORTS/801290371

I will say the people at Churchill are very excited and have their hearts in the right place.

Posted by: MJ at January 29, 2008 2:12 PM

Dear Barbaro, Alex & Famblee,
It is only 9 AM, here in the East & the board is full of loving messages & rememberances. The incredible linking of arms, devotion & support for all horses is far beyond what any one of us could have imagined one year ago.
Your light lives on. I see it every day in the faces of the horses grateful to be rescues. I read it every day is the words of your dedicated famblee members who call, fax & write in support of the pending legislations to save your brothers & sisters. I see it every day when your famblee comes together to honor you.
Although this is a sad day, it is also a day to celebrate your life & reaffirm our commitment to you & to one another. It will be a day with tears. But also a day with determined resolve to move forward, to keep your memory & light shining.
Run free, dear Barbaro.
Kathyk

Posted by: kathyk at January 29, 2008 2:13 PM

Oh, Barbaro. We have done the unthinkable. We have lived an entire year without you. We still miss you so. We will NEVER forget you.

Sleep in heavenly peace, sweetheart.

It's all about Barbaro in a sublime performance...

Kathy S.

Posted by: Kathy S. at January 29, 2008 2:13 PM

###

To Barbaro, you lived with grace, you died with dignity and you are now at peace.

I love you sweet prince, forever in my heart.

Judy

Posted by: Judy Scott-Ont, Canada at January 29, 2008 2:15 PM

###It was one year ago today that I started my first day at the part-time job at the local newspaper in the advertising department, so I did not hear about Barbaro's passing until I was in my car on the way home.

The person whose program I listened to said something about the energy that had gone toward trying to save Barbaro (whose name he pronounced "BarBEARo") and I knew that I HAD to get home to the Tim Woolley site because that was where I could join my friends and we could comfort each other. The fellow on the radio was not familiar with our vigils and our hopes for Barbaro. It wasn't that he didn't "get it," because he has a little dog he is very fond of--but, well he just didn't "get it" the way WE all did.

The next day our paper ran a wonderful editorial cartoon, a horse, flying across a field of flowers, while exclaiming, "I can run!! I can RUN!!"

Someone in the news department made a rude comment about the cartoon, and I cautioned him to be careful. Emotions were running deep for some people on this issue, I said, and he needed to watch what he said.

There was no fire in my eye when I said it, but the tears weren't far away.

As I have written before--and as Michelle in OH said so beautifully--faith looks up--and faith and hope EACH look FORWARD.

Today I will join the vigil and I will look forward with hope for the future and with confidence that "things will just get better and better."

As I have also written before, all things happen for a reason. And while we may not understand the reason at the time, eventually it will become clear.

Go forward in joy today, everyone, because of everything that has happened in the name of a wonderful big bay horse named Barbaro.

Posted by: KAY at January 29, 2008 2:15 PM

Dearest Barbaro,
The tears are flowing, my heart is so heavy for your loss still. The day I set eyes on you I had never seen anything so beautiful and "Those Eyes".
I loved you at first sight and always will love you,your place is in my heart forever in first place. The love in my heart connects to the love in your heart today untill the end of time.

"Here comes Barbaro, the undefeated Barbaro !"

"And it's all Barbaro, in a sublime performance !"

YOU DID IT WITH ROYALTY.

I BELIEVE!

God Speed Dear Friend. You now have lasting peace.

Posted by: Renee Antaya at January 29, 2008 2:21 PM

Today I will remember our champion Barbaro and all he brought to my life.

Rest in peace, Barbaro and run with the angels for all eternity.

Proud to be an FOB.

Posted by: LindaVA at January 29, 2008 2:23 PM

Hello FsOB famblee

I just want to post a little saying I found last year on this site on this day. "Do not cry for what is gone, but smile for what was once here." This helped me out throughout the year.

Barbaro I love you and I will never forget you I will march on in your name for the better of all creatures great and small. You took a piece of my heart with you.

Love you champion BBH!

Thank you Alex as always.
Love to the FOB.

FOB8

Liz

Posted by: Liz at January 29, 2008 2:24 PM

Barbaro,
You will always be remembered,you were so charismatic at everything you did,you will never be forgotten,

Posted by: John NY at January 29, 2008 2:25 PM

What a beautiful creature - we miss you sweet
prince - may you rest in peace. We will continue
to work toward finding a cure - in your memory.
Our thoughts and prayers reach out to the entire
Barbaro Team today and throughout the year.

Darcy

Posted by: Darcy at January 29, 2008 2:28 PM

I'll never forget where I was when Barbaro died. I'd been here at the site and we were waiting for word, because there was going to be an announcement, and all of us were filled with dread. Things had gone from bad to worse, the abscess leading to discomfort leading to Dr. Richardson's last-ditch effort to reinforce Barbaro's broken leg to take pressure off the laminitic foot. I didn't know that he had laminitis in his front feet as well, but we all knew it wasn't good.

So I think we all knew. It was a beautiful sunny day here in AZ, and I suddenly had to get out of the house and go for a walk in a nearby park. I remember feeling the sun and hoping against hope that the news would be good.

I came back to my computer and I saw the words where "Barbaro Remembered" is now. It said simply, "Barbaro Euthanized".

Even though I'd been expecting it, the bolt of anguish that shot through me was unbelievable. I felt as if I had been shoved to the ground and couldn't breathe. I know that all over the country other people, the FOBs and many many thousands more, felt the same way. It was astounding that he was gone.

And now it's been a year, and he has done so much for so many horses.

But I still miss him and wish he was here with us. I wish I could read ACN. I wish I could hear that he had gone to Kentucky and was able to enjoy a somewhat normal life. I wish he could graze on sweet grass and look at cows and teach Dr. Richardson a thing or two about humility. He was a star, and he knew it, and I believe the added eight months of life he had were mostly good ones.

He will always be a flame in my heart.

Posted by: J. Carson Black at January 29, 2008 2:29 PM

### Carol Nichols, thank you for acknowledging my gift to you and others

I will add some have said they can't open the attachment I sent in the email. You have to have adobe reader installed on your computer to read it. You can get adobe reader download free by going to www.adobe.com/products/reader

Posted by: Harriette Brillianthawk at January 29, 2008 2:30 PM

Always Comfortable Now, Big Boss Horse.

Mary in MD

Posted by: Mary Granito at January 29, 2008 2:30 PM

I have had trouble over the past year when people say, "Barbaro was "just" a horse, what's the big deal?", which launches me into my attempt to explain why he wasn't "just" a horse. Normal words don't seem to sum up what Barbaro was to the world.
If not for Barbaro, 1900 horses would be dead due to slaughter, thousands of people who never knew each other have united against anti-horse slaughter, the only 3 slaughter houses in this country have been permanently shut down and we are storming toward the closure of our borders so that no more of our wonderful horses will meet the barbaric death at the hands of monsters. Those are just a couple of the things that have been accompished since Barbaro, "just" a horse stepped into our lives.
He is not here to grace us with his beauty, but he is here to grace us with his spirit. Barbaro was different in many, many ways and he was NOT "just" a horse.
Love to all my FOB frens, all of you are special to me and love to Barbaro, you will never be forgotten.

P.S. In honor of the Big Boss Horse I am wearing my Barbaro Kentucky Derby shirt and hat, if you have one put it on, it really makes me feel good.

Hugs to you all,
Bernel

Posted by: Bernel at January 29, 2008 2:31 PM

Forever loved, forever missed, forever in my heart...Barbaro, you are heaven sent.

I love you sweet boy. I always will.


Mr. and Mrs. Jackson & Dr. Richardson, you always had nothing but love, respect, and the best intentions for Barbaro. You put him first above all else. Thank you for giving him a chance. Thank you for letting us love him. There should be more people like you. The world would be a much better place.

Posted by: doe at January 29, 2008 2:31 PM

Something to bring a smile to our faces. The capital in South Dakota is so busy with SB170 calls, they have PAGES answering the phones.

Let us make the very most of this--i hesitate because i don't know what to call this day. This very sad, shining, filled with memories, unbelievable, and tough--day.

I am trying not to shed tears, but there you have it: there they are. Just let it all go, and keep going forward. I'm making all my calls. Next I have to find the Gov.'s phone number. Somehow, Fobs, I do not think he's lolling around sipping coffee in bed this morning. They had NO IDEA what they were bringing on themselves with SB170.

Even if they somehow manage to get this passed, we'll shut it down. Remember, we have already been tutored in this.

OK. So off you go (as an English friend of mine says..) We're all together in this. I don't think there was ever such a unified group.

So glad to see so many here. All of Barbaro's connections in my heart this morning...j

Posted by: jonna at January 29, 2008 2:32 PM

Dearest Barbaro,

It is a year today since we had to let you go to greener pastures, and we miss you so. But this year has reminded us of the wisdom in the great truth that those we love never really leave us. You are an inescapable part of our hearts and souls, Barbaro, and your memory nourishes and fires us. I hope that you are finding us worthy of you. You taught all who gazed upon you how to live....and to die. You did not go gentle into your good night, no, you raged against the dying of the light. And you gave meaning to the words of Longfellow, in a phrase equally as appropriate to two or four-legged creatures, when he wrote, "We can make our lives sublime, and departing leave behind us footprints on the sands of time". You, Barbaro, left behind more than anyone could have dared to dream. Thank you for the memories that will last a lifetime. Thank you for blessing and gracing my life. And I hope that wherever you have moved on to, you have found buttercups and blue skies, fair winds and gentle company at your side. Love forever, baby..........

Posted by: Ann (Maryland) at January 29, 2008 2:33 PM

One year ago tody, I woke up with that worried sense of foreboding I think we all felt, coming off a weekend of anxious vigilence, knowing Barbaro was in trouble. Disbelief. Really aware of what could be / would be coming.

At a client's shortly after, I kept trolling sites on my laptop, searching for good news, though all I felt was apprehension when I read on this site that ESPN was heading over to a press conference. Then I hit on the headline online that Barbaro was gone on Thoroughbred Times.

I left immediately, bereft, to go home and watch the coverage of the press conference.

One of the saddest days I've ever had.

Today, I am just so thankful for Barbaro, thankful that we all participated in an amazing, emotional, and eventually hopeful and full of love experience. It is so tremendous that this horse and his spirit elicited the best if so many people. He made us collectively better, as so many of our own pets do so every day.

Still amazingly heartbroken over the loss of Barbaro, in some ways as if it were yesterday.

However, I am tremendously excited about the future -- shamelessly looking for the happy, special spirit in the eye of Nicanor and the foal, and in the lineage to come. Aren't we all a little hopeful?

And for Barbaro, ACN forever . . . ACN forever . . . ACN forever.

And all gratitude to the Jacksons, Dr. Dean Richardson, Michael Matz, Peter Brette, Edgar and Eduardo, Penny and Tim Woolley . . . and our special Alex Brown.

Thank you, Barbaro.

Karen, PA

Posted by: Karen, PA at January 29, 2008 2:34 PM

I wanted to take this opportunity to thank Alex and all he has done for us to keep this site up and running.
Kath fron Hilton Head Is., SC

Posted by: Kath at January 29, 2008 2:35 PM

Goood morning, Barbaro... it's been one year since I've visited here and wrote those words to you (looking for 'ACN' affirmation that you were doing ok).

In that year, Barbaro, the foundation that you laid in each of us, has blossomed. Your legacy continues. So much done in your name, honor and for the love of a horse we never met. Now, you belong to each of us -- you live in our hearts and give us the strength to carry on.

Missing you Bobby...

Always Believe In Barbaro!


Posted by: Susan/Tampa at January 29, 2008 2:35 PM

The Legend of Barbaro

I think about the way we met, talking on the Internet,
Because of a horse named Barbaro, born not so long ago.
He came to earth on heaven's wind, in April 2003;
We didn't know how much he'd mean to folks like you and me.

Bold and fiery, fast and strong, he seemed to have no fear;
And yet his eyes were calm and wise, his destiny so clear.
He'd be a mighty racehorse, known throughout the land;
He'd conquer every rival, every time he ran.
He'd win the Kentucky Derby, perhaps the Triple Crown;
Then one bright day at Pimlico, our dreams came crashing down.
His injury was awful; we didn't think he'd live;
But Barbaro, as now we know, had so much more to give.

His owners and his trainers put him in a van,
And rushed him up the highway, to meet a special man.
Doctor Dean would operate for hours the following day;
We hung on every news release, and really began to pray.

We gathered on the Forum as word spread far and near;
We lit ten thousand candles and talked to calm our fear.
We found we had a lot to say and soon began to know,
That we were on a journey, led by Barbaro.

Through all the days and months to come, he battled on and on;
His spirit never flagging, his heart forever strong.
He loved all those around him, and so we loved him more;
Filled with hope, we cheered him on to what life had in store.

We loved so much it overflowed in all the tears we shed;
We have to save ALL horses, "For Barbaro", we said.
Maybe in green pastures we'd see him one fine day.
We'd honor and protect him, if here on earth he'd stay.

But Fate turns on the smallest things, as raindrops on a roof,
And life and death are balanced in the weight upon a hoof.
You touched the best in all of us, when all but hope was gone;
Barbaro, we love you. For you we carry on.

By: Barbara Lively December 22, 2007

This is dedicated to the Fans of Barbaro.

Posted by: Barbara aka SmartyFan at January 29, 2008 2:35 PM

So many posts ! It's just like the "good old days."

I will be here, remembering, crying a little. O.K. SOBBING, trying to remain positive and celebrate Barbaro's life. (But there is nothing wrong with shedding some tears.)

Love you all. Vigil in less than an hour.

Posted by: Barb AZ, Chunky and Punky at January 29, 2008 2:40 PM

Hey, handsome guy! We think of you everyday, but we'll especially be thinking of you today. Our tears remind us of the love we feel for you and the hope your legacy brings around the world. Our thoughts go to Mr. and Mrs. Jackson on this day that they'll bring you home to all of us, and to Dr. R. who gave you a chance and so "many good days." Hope you're having fun in heaven, and may you always have the "sun on your whithers and the wind in your mane." RIP, sweet boy.

Posted by: Linda, Caesar & Chilli Bailey at January 29, 2008 2:41 PM

Precious Barbaro,

My heart is heavy, but your spirit is FREE! I find comfort in that knowledge.

Thank you for changing my life forever! Thank you for bring us together in this wonderful Famblee! I will always you, Big Boss Horse. Your eyes were the windows to your soul! No one will ever be greater than you! You OWNED Churchill Downs, and now that will become your final resting place. How befitting!

As Mrs. Jackson said, grief is the price we pay for love. I, personally, wouldn't have it any other way! We are all richer to have had you in our lives, even for just a short time!

God Bless You, Sweetheart. Run free Beautiful Barbaro!

Your fren forever and ever,
Ruth Stacey

Barbaro ... What a Beautiful Difference One Life Has Made!

Posted by: Ruth Stacey at January 29, 2008 2:42 PM

I also would like to thank Alex for everything he has done for us and to remember Barbaro, New Bolton, Peter Brette, Michael Matz, Edgar etc on this day.

I came across the following article entitled "Brette recalls thrill of riding Barbaro' at the following URL
http://www.thoroughbredtimes.com/national-news/2008/January/29/Brette-recalls-thrill-of%20riding-Barbaro.aspx

thanks,
lynnette

Posted by: lynnette at January 29, 2008 2:43 PM

Morning Precious Barbaro,

I stopped by to say hi and to let you know I Love and Miss You so very much, I'll be back here at 10:30 to be with all your fans on this sad day.

One of your fans Liz/Chickletsmom asked me to post this for her.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=zCdZwitrNoY

Be back in a bit.

Posted by: Sharon Crumb at January 29, 2008 2:44 PM

"Somewhere, somewhere ... in time's own space,
there must be some sweet, pastured place ...
where creeks sing on ... and tall trees grow,
Some paradise where horses go.
For by the love that guides my pen,
I know great horses live again."
~ Stanley Harrison

Big Boss Horse--You are Always Comfortable Now.
You've changed my life in unimagined ways and I am forever grateful. I carry you in my heart.

Just as it was a year ago, I'm so grateful that the FOB family is here, holding on to each other in spirit across time and space. Bless you all today as we continue on the journey that Barbaro began for us.

I STILL BELIEVE

Posted by: Dawn in Omaha at January 29, 2008 2:45 PM

Barbaro,
I rejoice in your spirit and determination. You are forever in our hearts.

Know this, dear one, you will always be loved.

FOBs Forever!

Love,
Deborah

Posted by: Deborah McCullough at January 29, 2008 2:46 PM

The moment of the rose and of the yew-tree
Are of equal duration.
T.S. Eliot, Four Quartets

Even though our beloved Barbaro's life was truly a "moment of the rose," his spirit, gallantry and grace will endure forever in our hearts. He was the stuff of legends, and we are blessed to have been here to bear witness to his short, but amazing life. We miss him still.

Vaya con Dios, BBH.

Posted by: Mary in Iowa at January 29, 2008 2:46 PM

Good morning, family -

Was there ever a time we didn't know each other? Was there ever a time we didn't work together for good things, and celebrate and grieve together? Was there ever a time that we were not connected?

For eighteen months, we have been walking a path together, and how remarkable that is. It is a long walk, ladies and gentlemen, and one fraught with pain and glee and difficulty and laughter, and throughout it, we have had this wonderful "house that Barbaro built" in which to exercise our passions.

And how fortunate we are to have passion! In a world of apathy, of greed, of compromise, here we find others who care, who care so deeply that it hurts, and who try, however great the odds, to change the equation we call life.

In the end, I look at today as a day of celebration, celebration of a life well-lived if too short, of work undertaken bravely whatever obstacles lay ahead, of willingness to live, as Barbaro did always, in the moment. It is a life of high contrast, not of murky grays, and that means, of course, that pain hurts more and joy feels better than it does when we put up our protective shields of cynicism,when we banish hope so that we won't experience disappointment. If we hope for nothing, we will not be made sad when nothing is what we receive. So, in adulthood, many of us, experienceing grief, experiencing the gradual erosion of youthful expectation, banished hope until we found that silly colt.

Ah, but hope is resilient. Hope is bulbs erupting into life beneath a covering of snow. Hope is painful, because we don't always get that for which we hope. But, without hope, without passion, we might as well not be participants in the cycle we call life.

So, I am grateful. I am grateful for all whom I have met here, for friendships in snippets of words, for pictures of horses saved, for a new awareness of the power of a grass roots movement, for all that has transpired here in eighteen months, for the ability to once again, as I did in my youth, let down the shields and allow pain and joy to wash the face of my soul. I love each and all of you, and I thank you for being part of my life. Mr. Brown, there are no words to articulate the gift you have given us, so we must just say thank you from the bottom of my heart.

And this, of course, is for Barbaro, posted before, but still, the best distillation of what I saw in him.

Barbaro's Flight

What are the qualities that call the soul?
What alchemy can make the spirit rise
Fom the silent center where it lies
Insulate at the heart of the complex whole?

Dance, mathematics, music, sunlit days
All have their magic. So, too, beauty sings
To complicated and concentric rings
Nestled within the brain. And courage preys

On us. An epic character appeals
To deepest instincts, forces us to gaze
Upon the hero, as his deeds amaze,
And, awestruck, wonder what it is he feels.

Tart self-assurance, undaunted by any glare
Lends us its balance. We draw from a great bank
Of Promethean vision. Silently we thank
Those who make real what we wish we could dare.

So, one bay horse, mane cropped and nostrils flared
Like a Greek warhorse, etched on an ancient frieze
Is likewise frozen in our minds. A breeze
Freshened with roses reminds us how we shared

His glory, how he never grudged our glee
In what were all his victories; how he gave
All he could give, how he continued brave
Through trials that only a grim fate could foresee.

He showed us patience, humor in fields of fire,
Grace under pressure in every condition,
Winning and injured, handled each transition
With sure aplomb to which we but aspire.

Still, what I shall recall as I look back
On his storied and caparisoned career
Is neither sorrow, nor the human fear
Scouring my heart, and staining blue skies black.

I shall, instead, direct my inner eye
To see the moment he taught us all to fly,
Defying physics, seeming to scorn the ground,
Turning for home at Churchill, alone, unbound.

Love and comfort to all in need, and have a
Barbaro day, courage and kindness.

With all my love - Jean

Posted by: Jean Nolan at January 29, 2008 2:47 PM

(reposted from last evening-edited to add Dr.Richardson)

My FOB sisters and brothers,
I will not be home until the evening time, Tuesday. I will be in the country holding my cats and weeping. It is now 1:30 a.m. and I have not stopped crying for around a week now. The crushing realization has sunk in that our Big Ole Boy Barbaro is not here anymore. It truly hurts just the same. I feel so bad for the Jackson's and Mr. Matz and Peter and Eduardo and Edgar. You know they are all heartsick from grief allover again. (I also know that Dr. Richardson is feeling the sadness and grief as well, heartsick with the rest of the family and connections)

I go for days thinking, and forgetting...and then I remember. I sigh. I cry. I then try. Try to remember what it was like when he was alive and beautiful, shiny and prancing. Try to remember him walking, running and dancing. He ran like no other horse I had ever seen on this earth. He was an enigma. He was a beacon, one that shone too bright, for too short a time, but lit the night sky so brilliantly it exploded into more stars.

There was never any other horse for me, nor will there ever be another. He was the one and only. My muse, my haunt, my love, my joy and then the wrenching pain of loss. The loss of something that was never mine to begin with, but mine all the same. In my heart, he was mine.

His spirit lives on in all the work each of you do. He will forever be etched in our brains and imprinted onto our souls as the greatest horse that started a worldwide movement.

He was... and is.... Barbaro.

In a SUBLIME performance.......................

Posted by: Dora J Crow on this SADDEST DAY in Montgomery Alabama djcrow1524@bellsouth.net at January 29, 2008 2:48 PM

TO BARBARO, CHAMPION HEART
Who's Indomitable Spirit, Gentle Beauty, Courage and Grace,
filled our Souls with Tender Love,
who will be an Inspiration for the Ages and will Forever Guide Us.
In Gratefulness and Devotion, Rememberance and Longing.
My Beloved Sweet Angel Horse Barbaro. I saw you grazing in Blue Leal Grass in my dream. I put my arms around you and felt your gentle breath on my cheek, as I did that fateful night in July, when I left NBC and left you in the gentle grace of Our Lady of the Almudena, she is always by your side, as she was by my side in my darkest hour, gently cradeling you in healing light. Your courage, determination and invincible spirit will carry us all Forward, Fear Not, You are the Chosen One. What You have Given us Will Be Returned to You a Million Times.( Eva January 29, 2007 9:44 PM)
You are Always in my Thoughts and Prayers, as are your Jackson Family. Dr. R and NBC Staff, Alex and Family and a Universe of FOB Souls.

Barbaro Thank You for having had the Privilege to be part of your Journey. In Our Hearts and Our Deeds Your Memory will Live on Forever.Words cannot express....Barbaro Champion of Our Hearts Forever.

Posted by: Eva at January 29, 2008 2:48 PM

FROM HARRIETTE THIS MORNING: so appropriate. Forward motion...
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New life comes in only as we turn loose of the old. There must be a place for what we want or need. If there is not a place prepared, the new circumstances flow on by—and we are left with the same things we have always had. If we think we cannot bear to part with an old way of life, we are not ready to accept anything new. Instead we can make a personal decision, a firm commitment, to forget what is behind and push forward to what is ahead. Our mental and spiritual attitudes make room for new life when we set them in motion with our words. Nothing will overtake us, not love or prosperity, not peace and joy—until we make a place for them and ask them to come in. Hope, alone, does not do it, but a firm decision for a new life will clear the way.

My people, before the white man came you were happy. You had many buffalo to eat and tall grass for your ponies—you would come and go like the wind.

Wokova
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Posted by: jonna at January 29, 2008 2:49 PM


THIS IS THE HOUSE THAT BARBARO BUILT

Alex, Eliza, Tim,& Jen brought us the foundation to build this house.

The Jackson's gave us the brick, the strongest ever made-BARBARO.

Eduardo kept the brick clean.

Mr. Matz & Peter shaped the brick.

Mr. Prado saved the brick from completely breaking when it fell.

Dr. Richardson & Dr. Anderson repaired the brick.

The brick WAS HELD together and new mortar was added-FOBs.

The brick was decorated by Kennett Florist.

A VERY strong HOUSE was built.

WE ARE THE HOUSE THAT BARBARO BUILT
WE SHALL NOT FALL DOWN
WE HAVE THE STRONGEST SUPPORT
The FOUNDATION is still STRONG

WE are STILL HERE
WE WILL ALWAYS BE HERE
WE SHALL NOT BE TORN APART.

(reposted from last evening)

Posted by: Dora J Crow on this SADDEST DAY in Montgomery Alabama djcrow1524@bellsouth.net at January 29, 2008 2:50 PM

What a year has taught us.

I will always remember Barbaro, Mr. & Mrs. Jackson, Dr. Richardson, Michael Matz, Alex, Peter and everyone associated with this amazing life event.

My heart is full, as opposed to empty.

Rest in peace, great one. You've helped change so many lives.

Thank you.

Posted by: Randee B. at January 29, 2008 2:54 PM

I rarely post anymore but I'm always here. I've been here from the beginning with Barbaro and all of you. This is a very hard day. Difficult to believe it's been one year. I have to go to work before the vigil so I will be thinking of the undefeated champion as I drive in my car.

Ashley

Posted by: Ashley Bruck at January 29, 2008 2:54 PM

I love that Dora, I just printed it to save,
God bless Barbaro, God bless us all
-Joanne

Posted by: Joanne Frank at January 29, 2008 2:55 PM

My Barbaro song is "100 Years" by Five for Fighting. I was looking for the lyrics of it when I had heard about Barbaro's crossing. I will listen to it again as we approach our moment of silence. But, the song inspired me to write the following essay:

It�s All About Love

Sometimes life sends us certain events, at certain times in our lives, which are designed to spur us to growth or lie dormant for awhile. When Ruffian died, coming up on 33 years ago, I went into a dormancy of sorts. She was my hero � a strong, spirited filly. But her breakdown, and the subsequent press surrounding it which said that her very spiritedness led to her demise, made me wonder whether my own spiritedness would lead me to the same fate. The pain of her crossing, added to the pain of my seventeen-year-old life, was simply too much so I walled myself off in an emotional cocoon, safe and protected. Don�t misunderstand; I still laughed and talked and cried and argued and worked and played but I held a vital part of me in reserve. In retrospect, I think that this dormancy was necessary; it stopped the grief and insured my survival. But my life took on pastel hues, a day, a week, a month, a year, a decade or two blending into a safe life.
But several events began my re-awakening: the death of my old dogs and my cat; a visit to Best Friends; and a horse named Barbaro.
I guess the best way that I can describe Barbaro�s effect on my life is to use an analogy. Picture a woman who had fled her past and had to return home. She walks into the family house, pretty much empty but still much as she�d left it save for a few, small details. Upstairs, there�s a young woman�s special room, an attic room designed for privacy, which holds memorabilia, dreams, posters, journals. Visualize a box filled with hopes and aspirations on a desk. And visualize that room locked and allowed to go to dust, undisturbed and, for all intents, abandoned. I would be the woman coming back home, heading toward the attic room. Except the �home� is my very spirit and the attic room the life that had been locked away.
The events in my life since my dogs� death in 2003 led me to the second floor of the house with the attic room and each subsequent event led me closer to the stairway and finally the door. When I watched Barbaro win the Derby and break down in the Preakness, when I read the ups and downs of his struggle, I fell in love with him, just as I had with Ruffian. Falling in love with a horse named Barbaro was the key that finally opened that door. He didn�t kick the door in; he just unlocked it and allowed me to enter in my own time, to review the contents of that room. My emotional house-cleaning paralleled his physical ordeal.
I love Barbaro. And over the course of these many months, I�ve pondered a great deal about defining his legacy. In many ways, that legacy is still unfolding. We still have to stop horse-slaughter; we have to cure or, at least, prevent laminitis; we have to make sure that horse-racing is made as safe as it can be. We have to be the voices for the horses, the animals, the planet.
But, in the end, his legacy is love.
For who among us does the work of rescue, or advocacy, without love in our hearts for the horses, the animals, the people we support? It�s the love we have for one horse that�s brought us together so that we may share the love we have for all horses, for all living things. It is the love we have in our hearts for this big colt that makes us lay those very hearts on the line, that keeps us filled up or drains us down to the dregs where we feel we can go on no longer. That same love makes us get back up the next day and start all over.
Barbaro and his story are about love and its validation. How we feel about Barbaro is a barometer of how we view ourselves. If any among us can remain unmoved by his life and death, if any can say �He was just a horse�, these are the very same among us who can walk past a homeless person or child, who can slaughter animals to make money, euthanize small animals to save money, cut down rainforests, pollute our environment. It�s just a matter of degrees.
As a group, we are sometimes scoffed at for our gentleness and loving tenacity. But I would rather accept those taunts because I love Barbaro than to become hardened to the point where he becomes �just a horse�. These people who throw the barbs � I wonder who else or what else they may scorn?
Barbaro is not a god or a totem, for me. He�s an experience. And it�s kind of funny how he can be an experience when I never met him. But he brought all of us together in a mutual experience that continues today and I hope will continue into the future for years to come.
I don�t look at the pictures of an ailing Barbaro much anymore. But I deeply appreciate all that was done to save him. I like, instead, to watch him run � and boy could he run! And when I remember that he�s not with us anymore, I feel a sadness, a loss of something great that didn�t last long enough. But slowly � ever so slowly � that I�m letting go of Barbaro because his spirit is too big to restrain. I�m coming to realize that as long as he lives in our hearts, as long as he and his life and death continue to bring us together and motivate us to make this entire world a better place for all living things � he will live forever within us as he lives, now, across a Bridge.
If I am judged good enough to cross The Bridge, I want nothing more than to be met by Ruffian and Barbaro and my dogs and cats. And my first utterance, I hope, will be �I love you. Thanks for giving me the courage to do that again.�

Posted by: Carla at January 29, 2008 2:56 PM

((( Dora ))) Hold tight, fren.

DOES ANYONE KNOW...is there a way we can see the press conference from work ? (As is, no TV?)

Thanks...

Posted by: Kathy in SC at January 29, 2008 2:56 PM

Good morning Bar